Monday, April 26, 2010

A Real Tropical Vacation

I remember last year I wrote an entire entry about sending the newborn nursery babies on a tropical vaca to treat jaundice. Well, this spring break I really did go on that tropical vacation. Me and 45 other well intentioned medical personnel traveled to the Dominican Republic to help deliver medical care to poor and improvised communities.
Looking back, I'm not sure what exactly I expected. I didn't think we would be staying in a five star hotel. I was prepared to sleep on the ground. I figured I would eat bugs and gather firewood before milking our one goat. Like, whateves, it would all be in good fun and I could probably survive my spring break living like a Seattle runaway. But I hadn't thought that I wouldn't have basic medical equipment. I thought that, I don't know, the hospital would have WALLS.
We packed bags and bags of medical supplies with us into large canvas sacks and each of us was responsible for one. They weighed between 25 and 50 lbs, and every person in a 45 strong group heaved one to the Dominican on our backs. So we had a pretty intense supply of medications to prescribe and distribute at the little shack towns we visited every day. We also brought bags of surgical equipment and a few surgeons. We planned one doing GYN surgery on women with tumors and other issues that couldn't get help otherwise. The local hospital we worked with was letting us use their Operating Room. I thought we had packed enough. We were good.
It's comical how wrong I was. Alarm bells should have started to ring the first day we were there and I was approached to join the surgical team. Surprised, I said of course I would help them out, but I really had super limited experience as an OR nurse. No one cared. It was me or nothing.
Uh-oh. Could a nurse familiar with the OR work with them from the hospital?
No. It was already an issue getting an anesthesiologist. So okay.
The next morning, I dressed in my most fashionable scrubs and joined My New Surgeon Friend Laura. We rode to the hospital in the normal Dominican way, which means we were loaded into the back of a pick up truck.
When we got to the hospital we got a nice tour. It was sunny, shiny, and new.It was full of activity. It was missing a few walls and doors. A bird flew in. The nurses wore mint green polyester outfits with tiny white hats. I'm not sure why they were employed, because I basically never saw one. In the OR there were fly swatters.
We met our on-loan anesthesiologist. We said Hi and he waved back, with his one arm. Because the other arm was broken. We had a one armed anesthesiologist. During our tour, we learned that if any patient developed blood pressure higher than 210/150 to call Sue. Who Sue is or how to call her was not explained.
My New Surgeon Friend Laura reacted with amazing composure. She simply said "We are here to help. Let do the best we can with that we got." That became my motto.
I was asked to pre and post op care. We had met up with a team from Yale who were super excited to do some random surgeries with us, and they had an experienced scrub nurse. So I did vitals, medicated my patients, and put in IVs. These tasks were harder than expected for a few reasons including:
1. I had given New Medical Student Friend Caitlin my bag o trix. When I left good old america, i had packed an amazing kit with my otoscope, bp cuff, thermometer, bandages, cartoon stickers, and other VITAL things. Figuring these would all be at the hospital, I sent it to the shanty-town. It quickly became apparently all the bag o trix materials I so casually discarded were not readily available in my new situation. I was able to haggle a thermometer from a very frosty medical person whose position i never figured out (nurse? med assistant? DIRECTOR OF THE HOSPITAL?!). I was handed a mercury thermometer and a baby food jar filled with rubbing alcohol for cleaning between uses.
2. If you've never attempted IV insertion in a developing country, you should read up about it before you go. Imagine my surprise/desperation/panic when I realized that no, we hadn't packed IV insertion kits in the massive pile of other shit we brought. I once again had to haggle them from Snow Queen Hospital Lady. And they had no flushes or extension sets. I was given another baby food jar to disinfect the skin.
3. EVERYONE BLEW Their LINES. Constantly. I was having a meltdown. Giving meds is impossible when there is no access port and literally no access in the line. The Snow Queen came to help me. Her method was to literally slap the patient. I mean she slapped them left and right on both arms. I was shocked, an emotion I had basically experienced all day. She explained that slapping releases histamine and makes the vessels swell. I nodded like ooooh of course.

The day progressed with more mishaps that I;ve ever made. It was a constant comedy of awful. I quickly became known as the wasteful American because I required two sheets per bed. And the sheets were too small, so I would tuck in three corners, pull on the fourth, then another would pop out, OVER AND OVER. My translator was a great lady, but an awful translator because she would often forget I couldn't speak cereole and just stop translating for me. I'm not sure the nature of her position because I also saw her changing the drip rates on my IV lines. In American NO ONE TOUCHES MY LINES.

(Here is my JD-style internal monologue)
After, when I considered the day in the Dominican I realized why I found it so hard to adapt to this free style medical care. i mean, yes it was utterly ridiculous. But I seemed to have a more difficult time just going with the flow that everyone else. I realized it's because as a new nurse and a new student and a new EVERYTHING the one area I find comfort in is in absolutes. I relish control and knowledge and doing everything by the book. In the Dominican, I was cut off from my top of the line supplies, my piles of books, AND MY IPHONE FOR GOD'S SAKE. I had to rely on only my best efforts, and that's always scary.



Obviously I didn't bake anything there. I couldn't even drink the water.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

One Year Later

Yes, I am aware that I have left this blog to die and rot for about a year now. And I know the Internet world has been trying to go on and live without ridiculous stories of medical mishaps and delicious recipes, but I have decided to return. I will once again blog about baking and bringing.
Although, these days I'm not bringing much anywhere. The hellish year of fast paced hospital rotations and back to back exams has ended and I've moved up in the world to new type of hell: unemployment. This, however, yields significantly less entertaining stories, although it does leave more time for baking, and I had perfected a few bread recipes.
How did I end up here may you ask? I will tell. When I last wrote, I was finishing my maternity rotation and moving on to psych on a locked ward. After finishing my psych education, I did acute physical rehabilitation in a delightful mansion on a hill filled with 70-something year olds wheeling around after strokes. It was fun and adorable. By then, it was May and I began my summer internship in medical oncology, which was a fun 250 hours of priming IV tubing and memorizing horrific lab values. I was so busy I barely baked. And then.... it was over. My school declared me as an able bodied care taker and unleashed me out into the world, pending my passing grade on the board examination. If you are worried that I just skated over about 6 months worth of recipes and undoubtedly entertaining hospital follies, don't worry. I plan on elaborating in later posts.
In October, I sat for my boards. I showed up wearing plaid and keds, twitching like a nervous wreck and tossing my large amount of hair in my face like a hood. I didn't just look anxious; I was scratching myself like a crack addict desperate for a fix. After supplying the nessecary paperwork, I was brought into the testing room to be briefed on the use of the computers and format of the test. I was informed of my right to a bathroom break every two and a half hours. I was horrified. I said "No I'd rather just test until I'm finished. I won't be requiring any breaks." The exam proctor gently said "Are you sure? The test is 6 hours long...." My already obvious agitation got worse as I said "Really... uh... well I have somewhere to be in a little bit."
By then, it was obvious everyone in the testing center thought I was a total mess. As I took my exam, I continued to nervously scratch my scalp and bit my nails. 45 minutes and a number of questions about TURP procedures later, I raised my hand and told the proctor I was finished. She clearly thought I had failed and said "oh, well, it's okay you can always take it again.
I didn't fail. I OWNED that exam. I was an exam slayer that afternoon. I bent that exam to my will and destroyed in so completely it wasn't even a fair fight. Julie: 1. Boards: 0.
However, now the count is a little different. Now it is Julie: 0 Real Life: 10 million, because despite having crushed the boards with intelligence-created fire and brimstone, I can't find a job. I haven't done any patient care since my medical oncology internship, except for the occasional volunteer shift at free clinics and the temp work I did for public health vaccinating school kids against H1N1. My life has taken on a dramatic change since the fast paced sprint that was last year. Now, it is the monotonous, crushingly depressing life of the unemployed. I wake up at noon. I cry into my oversized coffee cup for an hour, dripping tears into the lukewarm liquid, while wearing my fucking bathrobe. I internet surf.Then I apply for jobs over and over, anxious scratching my scalp and twisting my hair like I'm back taking that fucking exam.
I, obviously, still go to school, but my schedule now consists of mammoth-sized chunks of class for like 12 hours and more days off. In my advanced health assessment I still get to wear a white coat and act like I have a purpose in life. But the rest of my time is free. Before, I slept during these intervals, but I'm trying a healthier, more active use of my time. So lately, I've been having bake sales.
Next month I'm going on a trip to the Dominican Republic with a bunch of other students. My job has been to raise funds by baking delicious cookies and cupcakes to sell for profit. Sweets and a push up bra can work miracles, so I've created a fairly lucrative business that is making me question my career choices. Should I really be an NP, or would to be better to open a corner bakery? I recently baked AWESOME sugar cookies for Valentine's Day that just plain weren't amazing, but lend themselves really well to being jazzed up:
Butter Sugar Cookies
1 cup butter, room temperature
1 cup sugar
1 large egg
1 egg yolk
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/2 tsp. salt
2 1/2 cups bleached all-purpose flour

I cut them in to heart shapes, dripped them into chocolate I melted in a double boiler, and then sprinkled chopped almonds on them. They looked to cute for people to pass them up and I raked in the cash for my mission trip. These cookies are a good all purpose cookie that can be dressed up for a number of occasions!
So anyway, that is the current state of things. I'm sorry I have been so absent for so long, but now I am ready to start and bake anew. I can replay some of the more ridiculous hospital stories from the last 6 months, including the schizophrenic who told me i was pretty, and the patient who got run over by a wheel chair. I can also explain some of the more serious events, like my experiences helping my terminal patients and how important i learned it was to hold a hand. Plus, all that stupid stuff I did, like catching mumps, shoot myself in the thumb with epi, and being the only student to report an adverse event when I got exposed to H1N1. In the meantime I will continue to apply for jobs like mad, maybe study some pharmacokinetics and play EverQuest. I may be down, but not out.